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Appearance anxiety. Health anxiety. I haven't exactly crashed but I have been wobbling.
I still can't really move freely; I sat in the car to Täby and back yesterday, and went into one shop there, and then I was wiped out. I'm sceptical as to my ability to do a full working day including maybe 5h on buses altogether, fast turnarounds between schools (sometimes requiring a flat run), and no chance to lie down at any stage by next week. I suspect I'm going to end up getting my leave extended again.
Therefore also money anxiety.
I do appreciate that I don't need to worry about these things in actuality. I weigh more than last year because last year I was too mentally ill to eat properly. I'm feeling all kinds of terrible because of my back and the medicine I'm taking to control the pain but it's not life threatening and as I'm getting physio etc it really will go away. And we've managed on just Val's income before, so, well.
But you know, I'm feeling kind of wretched because I haven't been able to do much of anything for about a month. So I worry anyway!
(I also have to get a haircut in the next couple of weeks, which is a really stupid thing to have anxiety about, but try telling my subconscious that.)
I still can't really move freely; I sat in the car to Täby and back yesterday, and went into one shop there, and then I was wiped out. I'm sceptical as to my ability to do a full working day including maybe 5h on buses altogether, fast turnarounds between schools (sometimes requiring a flat run), and no chance to lie down at any stage by next week. I suspect I'm going to end up getting my leave extended again.
Therefore also money anxiety.
I do appreciate that I don't need to worry about these things in actuality. I weigh more than last year because last year I was too mentally ill to eat properly. I'm feeling all kinds of terrible because of my back and the medicine I'm taking to control the pain but it's not life threatening and as I'm getting physio etc it really will go away. And we've managed on just Val's income before, so, well.
But you know, I'm feeling kind of wretched because I haven't been able to do much of anything for about a month. So I worry anyway!
(I also have to get a haircut in the next couple of weeks, which is a really stupid thing to have anxiety about, but try telling my subconscious that.)
